goooooooooooooooooood sunday morning, trying to figure out what me and the fam are doing, i see gattis in the picture. be a good day to stop by me mahs, i'd like to have a bigger budget. DAMN YOU L! ;) last night i watched 21 jump street, pretty frikin funny. jonah hill got puked on again, (never gets old). i know blockbuster sucked and i rarely went there, but it sure would be convenient now. the closest movie store is like 15 miles away. NOT HAPPENING! SOON AS THAT BABY WAKES UP IM OUT! SO IM OUT!!

a saturday alone. it all sounded great until it happened. i realized my video games suck, and i woke up this morning with the worst headache of my life. i couldn't open my right eye for the 1st hour i was awake. went to acadamy and picked up a swing for L that i am not smart enough to figure out, also got a couple of shirts. the more that i write this tonight the more i am boring the shit out of myself. The candlepark stars put out a new album today and it's pretty amazing. goodmotherfuckingnight.

It's been a few since my last post. i've been to chicago, iowa, and all around texas since then. it's not that i haven't had the time, i just don't have shit to write about. Little L is about to be 9 months in about a week. i was looking at her newborn pics and i got a little watery in the eye region. she's really been incredible and i can't believe how big and smart she is. The trip was good, not even a month ago, it seems so long ago its hard to remember. (my fat fingers are fucking with me really bad right now). I will say that the Chicago PD are a bunch of FUCKHEADS. Not that i had a run in or anything, they are just FUCKHEADS. I did go to a bar in chitown 2 nights in a row sporting my Packers hat. Work just sucks more and more everyday and I am now content knowing I need a job for now, and hopefully in 3-4 more years i can switch everyyhing over to my personal business. The transition just really sucks. I also ate way to much fucking brisket yesterday on the 4th. If I don't write again before the 10th, which i probobly won't. I'd like to wish my dad a happy birthday. I think he would have really loved to see his little grand daughter L.

i give you anything

petty petty petty... wounds will heal... it feels like i am pulling bricks with these heavy chains. i don't know what this burden i carry is, but i know that it sux. my heart is feeling heavier and heavier these days, and im honestly not sure why.
i'm sure that this will pass, it always does. night me.

A mirthful experience

all is well this evening, i must say i have no complaints. my daughter is slowly taking the anger out of me more and more everyday. i still get upset at work daily, the difference now is that i know that all i have to do is make it through the day. so that i can come home and squeeze the little monkey. one of the things that i said that i would never do when i became a parent was drift away from my friendships. obviously i have nothing against any of my friends, but life changed. i work to pay the bills, and i live for my family. having a child makes me respect my mother more than ever, how she did it with three im not sure. as an adult all i do is complain about how my mother and father never gave me shit growing up. my dad worked as an electrician and many other things. a very trendy fella with the newest shoes and clothing brands you could think of. dressing to impress those that he cared about the least. however beings how my dad made decent money and never bought me shit seems to have fogged my memory of the great sacrifices that my mom made for all of us. she worked for 3 dollars an hour in the 80s which i would say close to 100% went to her kids. she had a teal sweat shirt with the sleeves cut at the elbows that she wore 3-4 times a week. my mother was beaten every other week or so, but hid it so well that no one knew how serious that the bruises were. skip to the next decade, she left my dad when i turned 15 because my dad kicked me out of the house. at this time she was working at a department store making somewhere in the range of 10-12 dollars an hour. spending 600 dollars on rent and getting a credit card with an insane limit, she maxed it out buying me name brand clothes, nike shoes and a generous weekly allowance so that i could hang out with my normal friends and the normal families living the normal lifestyle she so badly wanted me to have. my mom went through a rough patch and never seemed to get out of the funk which i can't get into today due to the nature of this blog. but the point is that over the years i came to forget the things she did for me and my siblings and i tend to forget that she's the reason that i am alive. people sometimes ask me why i turned out so well after going through the things i went through growing up and i always take the credit, well it's time to set the record straight. basically my mom did it the best that she could, and ultimately she's the reason. i can be a fucked up person at times, but to balance things out i think that i got the best of my mothers attributes, and that is why i am who i am today. i hope that i will be as good of a dad as my mother was my mom.

SIGUR MOTHA FUCKIN ROS

so it's sigur ros on repeat on the old i-pod. really it's an i-pod classic from like 2007 i think, this mother fuckers been through it all. this music is helping my mind relax and is seriously bringing peace into my life, it has fucking been life changing!! get it? get it? fuck im retarded.
so less than 3 months until i become a dad. Happy, nervous, terrified, excited, fucking stoked and all that jazz.

rules:
cussing will be allowed by little slips here and there, shit, damn, etc..
No cunt bombs in front of the kid
toilet humor.. that ones up for debate
supportive of anything she wants to do except being a bears or cubs but mostly bears fan
bleed green
tattoos are not acceptable unless it's of aaron rodgers or john kuhn
ear piercings at a young age is undecided
more coming soon...

Million Miles an Hour

now that i've been to slc, i must say that i really liked it. great pubs, good shopping, beautiful views, to bad the mormons had to fuck it up. for those who are wanting to become filthy rich build a church or temple. the money will come in i promise.
i have an interview this weekend, and this blog is being forced tonight im out.

Daddy-O

Well, I guess I have not really blogged about this at all, but it doesn't mean that I'm not excited. I am going to be a dad and I couldn't be happier. Things have really seemed to slow down for me recently, I am enjoying little things more than I used to. I am not letting little things bother me as much as they used to. I do think this is just a phase.
I Hear Sirens, Explosions in the Sky, The 7 Mile Journey, and Saxon Shore. Those are the 4 bands that have changed music for me. (for now) Kind of the how have I never heard this before feel.

LA

so all day today i thought about this potential job oppurtunity. i hate so many things about my job, but fuck my boss puts up with a lot of shit. this new job is less than a mile from my current one so no time or gas saved, same job different company. is there really a possibility for me to be better at this new place? when it all comes down to it, i will hate this place as much as i hated the last, and the one before that, and the one before that, and on, and on.

elliot smith's been dead for 7 years now, but his music is still capable of calming me down.
song of the day/week
LA
The gentleman's in the lane
Spinning his hat on a cane
Stepping out, out for a change
Good morning all, it's a beautiful day
The generals are winning the war
Seemed suicidal before you came along
Now, now
I'll protect you, long as you'll stay
LA
Morning had to come, I'd be walking in the sun
Living in the day
But last night I was about to throw it all away
If patience started a band
I'd be her biggest fan
Look at me, I'm talking to you
I don't want the lead in your play
The star's just a part of the scene
The gentleman in green
Paying off, out on the street
I can't go home, it's not on my way
LA
Things I've never done, cars parked in the sun
Living in the day
But last night I was about to throw it all away
Last night I was about to throw it all away
Last night I was about to throw it all away
Last night I was about to throw it all away

He's pleased to meet you underneath the horse

3-14-2011

things seem to get worse before they get better. sometimes i just wish people woudn't fuck with me. i can't wait til i am fully self-employed. on a daily basis i tell my boss to quit fucking with me. how much more blunt can i be?
this would be a great place to advertise for my business but who the fuck would purchase my service after reading this? the thought of being able to work for myself by myself sounds great. i guess the lines of work i choose are weird. my previous 3 co-workers: an ex crackhead, a current pothead and other rec drugs, a non english speaking man. my favorite of the 3 is the mexican.
the mexican and i are strangely on the same page. work and go home, do your job, do it well and go home. we both have pretty good work ethics, but our difference of age 20+ years and dramatic language barriers keeps us from being able to communicate with eachother.
i have a headache...

before anyone thinks i am some white power mother fucker, please keep in mind that i am half mexican. i in no way shape or form dislike hispanic people. just thought i would clarify that. ;)

on a totally different note please listen to elliot smith

He's pleased to meet you underneath the horse
In the cathedral with the glass stained black
Singing sweet high notes that echo back
To destroy their master
May be a long time 'til you get the call-up
But it's sure as fate and hard as your luck
No one'll know where you are

It's just a brief smile crossing your face
I'm running speed trials standing in place

When the socket's not a shock enough
You little child, what makes you think you're tough
When all the people you think you're above
They all know what's the matter
You're such a pinball, yeah you know it's true
There's always something you go back running to
To follow the path of no resistance

It's just a brief smile crossing your face
I'm running speed trials standing in place
It's just a brief smile crossing your face
Running speed trials all over the place

Stranded in the spooky town

so it turns out that i should have gone to bed before 3am last night. exhausted today and i am still awake, i do dumb shit. a beer would be fantastic, but a beer may lead to 2 and i've never drank "2" beers. facebook is suddenly starting to get really old. i think ever since i watched that dumbass social network movie "because everyone said it was great" fb just hasn't been the same. peoples fucking grandmothers have facebook, what the fuck?

what a day

i heard what i wanted to hear, i met a cool guy, i ate at a new place, about to drink a beer, gonna kill some zombies, bout to go to bed.

god bless you

was god a man or woman?

this is a very common question to most christians,
was god a man or woman?
i would say that most would say he was a man. now if this was not a fictitious charactor, i would say man. why? biblical pictures indicate he had a fucking beard. so lets debate. a dumb ass debate at that. was a fictitious charactor who went by the name of jesus a man or woman? god was the one who created it all. he created himself. he created man. he created woman. he created himself before man or woman. he has no cock and no pussy, because he created himself before these 2 things existed. because he had not created them yet, he had to be a man? its like a childrens story when the child says mom so how did the cow save his family? the mother looks curious and simply says faith.

the world as you know it, i'm no crazier than you

212 years ago, the dragonfly god jerumino (heh-room-ino) created the planet earth from a fragment of dust off of the planet veijoo (vee-eh-who), commonly know as "the moon". jerumino created all living and non-living things on the earth in 3 minutes. jerumino the dragonfly was in fact not a person, but a dragonfly. in the year 1898 a.d. or 100 years after jerumino created the world jerumino became angry with the world, and filled the land with the creatures known as umbientes (ooh-m-bee-in-tays), commonly known as "dinosaurs". the umbientes were all human flesh eating beast. the umbientes killed all but 2 humans in the year 113, or 1903 a.d. in 115 or 1905 a.d. mahjimbur and janet (mah-heembur and janet), were the only 2 survivors. they had 2 monkeys and a snake. the monkeys gringeviti and peghnukcinson and the snake lucifer. the creater of the earth jerumino told mahjimbur and janet that they must sacrifice the only snake that they had to him and he would allow them to have sex with the monkeys, to re-create the living population on the earth. so they did. lucifer however was not happy about this. and he told jerumino, why jerumino, i have been your loyal snake my entire life and this is how you treat me? i will make it my goal to defeat you. so jerumino told lucifer, you are banned from uladian (you-lay-dee-an) commonly known as heaven. and you are damned to crawl below the earth in tianokkashioneyshin (tea-ah-no-kah-she-own-e-shin).

the world as you know it, i'm no crazier than you

this will probobly never be continued...

i recently bought another ben folds album, "songs for silverman". it's pretty much like the others, amazing. i'll leave you with these lyrics.

Under some dirty words on a dirty wall
Eating takeout by myself
I played the shows
Got back in the van and put the Walkman on
And you were playing

In some other dive a thousand miles away
I played a thousand times before
And like pathetic stars, the truck stops and the rock club walls
I always knew
You saw them too
But you never will again

It's too late
Don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time

Elliott, man, you played a fine guitar
And some dirty basketball
The songs you wrote
Got me through a lot
Just wanna tell you that

But it's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
it's been too late
for a long time

Oh no
Things were looking up
Least that's what I heard
Oh no
Someone came and washed away your hard-earned
Peace of mind

When desperate static beats the silence up
A quiet truth to calm you down
The songs you wrote
Got me through a lot
Just wanna tell you that

But it's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time
It's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time

pandora

pandora thinks that i would like billy joel.
go fuck yourself pandora.

so easy

laid on the couch for almost 4 hours eating pizza and watching poker. time to shower and get ready for the day tommorow. fucking exhausted. i am really starting to dig this lazy after work thing that i've got going on. no christians are fucktarded comments tonight, just time to shower and sleep.

leaving you with this one...
Catholics are against abortions.
Catholics are against homosexuals.
But, I can't think of anyone who has less abortions than homosexuals! -- George Carlin

when life hands you lemons

Bought the new jimmy eat world, pretty durn good. I have over 40 GB used on my i-pod and not a GOD DAMN THING TO LISTEN TOO!!! I love Fridays, but I fucking hate Mondays. Every Friday means Monday is that much closer... Fuck me.

We cannot learn fear of God and the basic principles of godliness, unless we are pierced by the sword of the Spirit and destroyed. It is as if God were saying that to rank among his sons our ordinary natures must be wiped out.
-- Calvin, John

FUCKING GAY

really not sure what gets into people. do i want to die? no, not at all. am i scared of death? sure, at times. why not believe in god? why not live in middle earth? i like the story a lot more, and it seems quiet realistic in comparison.

to a movie

I am trying to figure out which movie I am going to take the old ball and chain to. I know its either get him to the greek or grown ups. tough choices tough choices. my new dog dex is pretty kick ass, even though little kylie is trying to fuck him. and i was gonna smoke a briscuit today but... i slept in so pluckers it is! FUCK YEAH!

A FUCKING TARD

The following was a posting on facebook, and it basically made me have to blog.

I pledge allegiance to the Flag of the United States of America, and to the REPUBLIC for which it stands: one
Nation under GOD, indivisible, With Liberty and Justice for all. REPOST
IF YOU THINK OUR COUNTRY AND OUR FLAG DESERVE RESPECT! Let's see how
many will repost

Yeah, you real fucking patriotic you fucking turd faggot. I fucking hate these little cock-mouth fuck-head assholes.

I am currently listening to deftones & ben folds, nice little mix.

Where the fuck have I been?
I'd been looking for a new fucking job.
What the fuck has been up?
I got a new phone, new house, new job, and a new truck.
A new truck?
Look it's not some massive diesel redneck fuckhead truck.
A new job?
Yeah so far 8-5 is not the worst thing in the world.
A suit and tie job?
no...
A new house?
jealous?
A new phone?
Motoralla Cliq, or click* IDFK
What the fuck is up with you?
I kind of am you...

deuty deuty deuty,

26 But you were unwilling to go up; you rebelled against the command of the LORD your God. 27 You grumbled in your tents and said, "The LORD hates us; so he brought us out of Egypt to deliver us into the hands of the Amorites to destroy us. 28 Where can we go? Our brothers have made us lose heart. They say, 'The people are stronger and taller than we are; the cities are large, with walls up to the sky. We even saw the Anakites there.' "
29 Then I said to you, "Do not be terrified; do not be afraid of them. 30 The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, 31 and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place."

32 In spite of this, you did not trust in the LORD your God, 33 who went ahead of you on your journey, in fire by night and in a cloud by day, to search out places for you to camp and to show you the way you should go.

34 When the LORD heard what you said, he was angry and solemnly swore: 35 "Not a man of this evil generation shall see the good land I swore to give your forefathers, 36 except Caleb son of Jephunneh. He will see it, and I will give him and his descendants the land he set his feet on, because he followed the LORD wholeheartedly."

37 Because of you the LORD became angry with me also and said, "You shall not enter it, either. 38 But your assistant, Joshua son of Nun, will enter it. Encourage him, because he will lead Israel to inherit it. 39 And the little ones that you said would be taken captive, your children who do not yet know good from bad—they will enter the land. I will give it to them and they will take possession of it. 40 But as for you, turn around and set out toward the desert along the route to the Red Sea. [a] "

41 Then you replied, "We have sinned against the LORD. We will go up and fight, as the LORD our God commanded us." So every one of you put on his weapons, thinking it easy to go up into the hill country.

42 But the LORD said to me, "Tell them, 'Do not go up and fight, because I will not be with you. You will be defeated by your enemies.' "

43 So I told you, but you would not listen. You rebelled against the LORD's command and in your arrogance you marched up into the hill country. 44 The Amorites who lived in those hills came out against you; they chased you like a swarm of bees and beat you down from Seir all the way to Hormah. 45 You came back and wept before the LORD, but he paid no attention to your weeping and turned a deaf ear to you. 46 And so you stayed in Kadesh many days—all the time you spent there.
...well fuck...

sleepy sunday back to work

bought a fridge, microwave, and a classy ryans steakhouse dinner. looking forward to another kick ass week at work! retard moment of last week, the master of all special people left a note that said ( Temple driver wood not take reterns.) this was not a typo, this was pen and motha fucking paper. I don't hate my job, I hate the ignorant fucking co-workers that are kind enough to show up daily. fuck talking about work, i'll be doing it all week. to be real honest with you, i'm not sure if there was a point in this blog tonight. i've been jamming the new gorillaz and alpha rev albums. my wifes alarm just went off time to go for now.