genesis 34 + day 5 = the weekend!

well since it's the weekend i will go easy, as i am not hating life quiet as much at the moment. i can be a very irritable prick sometimes, i'm not all that sure of how my wife deals with my mood swings, but she does so wonderfully. now in case you just so happen to think that your job sucks, you can feel free to take mine. i go to work at 3pm and work in a warehouse till midnight, then i hop into a 24 ft bob-tail (truck) and drive to san antonio arrive there at 1:30 unload and pick up freight. then i get back to austin around 3 am and unload my truck. im home by 4am every night. what the fuck am i doing bitching? it's the weekend. i apologize.

well im not gonna leave you hanging so we will jump into the scripture of the day. i quickly found this, as i do with most of the others that i will post. it struck my attention very quickly. i believe that morals were totally different around back in the biblical days. this is a little bit of a lengthy scripture so it will be the only one for this blog. but this scripture really hit me hard.

Genesis 34
1NOW DINAH daughter of Leah, whom she bore to Jacob, went out [unattended] to see the girls of the place.
2And when Shechem son of Hamor the Hivite, prince of the country, saw her, he seized her, lay with her, and humbled, defiled, and disgraced her.
3But his soul longed for and clung to Dinah daughter of Jacob, and he loved the girl and spoke comfortingly to her young heart's wishes.
4And Shechem said to his father Hamor, Get me this girl to be my wife.
5Jacob heard that [Shechem] had defiled Dinah his daughter. Now his sons were with his livestock in the field. So Jacob held his peace until they came.
6But Hamor father of Shechem went out to Jacob to have a talk with him.
7When Jacob's sons heard it, they came from the field; and they were distressed and grieved and very angry, for [Shechem] had done a vile thing to Israel in lying with Jacob's daughter, which ought not to be done.
8And Hamor conferred with them, saying, The soul of my son Shechem craves your daughter [and sister]. I beg of you give her to him to be his wife.
9And make marriages with us and give your daughters to us and take our daughters to you.
10You shall dwell with us; the country will be open to you; live and trade and get your possessions in it.
11And Shechem said to [Dinah's] father and to her brothers, Let me find favor in your eyes, and I will give you whatever you ask of me.
12Ask me ever so much dowry and [marriage] gift, and I will give according to what you tell me; only give me the girl to be my wife.
13The sons of Jacob answered Shechem and Hamor his father deceitfully, [ justifying their intended action by saying, in effect, we are going to do this] because Shechem had defiled and disgraced their sister Dinah.
14They said to them, We cannot do this thing and give our sister to one who is not circumcised, for that would be a reproach and disgrace to us.
15But we do consent to do this: if you will become as we are and every male among you be circumcised,
16Then we will give our daughters to you and we will take your daughters to us, and we will dwell with you and become one people.
17But if you will not listen to us and consent to be circumcised, then we will take our daughter and go.
18Their words pleased Hamor and his son Shechem.
19And the young man did not delay to do the thing, for he delighted in Jacob's daughter. He was honored above all his family [so, ranking first, he acted first].
20Then Hamor and Shechem his son came to the gate of their [enclosed] town and discussed the matter with the citizens, saying,
21These men are peaceable with us; so let them dwell in the land and trade in it; for the land is large enough [for us and] for them; let us take their daughters for wives and let us give them our daughters.

wow, that seems fair. hey you fucked my daughter against her will. she begged you to stop, you could have killed her. you have scarred my beautiful daughter for life! and for that i will kill you! whats that? a deal? ok circumcise yourself. let me become rich. well share a beer over dinner son, and remember daddy loves you. yeah, that bitch dinah's been asking for it anyway wearing her slutty clothes, im glad it was you that raped her, at least i got something out of that worthless bitch.

now if you are still wondering why this passage makes me a little more sick than any other passage in the bible, it's for this fucking reason. are you ready? my parents really really really fucked up on this one, here goes. my name is JACOB! my parents named me after this FUCK! thanks mom and dad!

ok i lied, here is a tiny one! go get me my dinner woman!

genesis 2:21-25
21And the LORD God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam, and he slept: and he took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh instead thereof;
22And the rib, which the LORD God had taken from man, made he a woman, and brought her unto the man.
23And Adam said, This is now bone of my bones, and flesh of my flesh: she shall be called Woman, because she was taken out of Man.
24Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh.
25And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.

and the lord told adam to go fuck himself, and he did and he had 2 kids! seriously, basically adam fucked himself. wtf?

deuteronomy + day 4 = venting

im back with a little scripture to start you off. a good friend of mine introduced this to me tonight, and i could not let it pass by. below i have copied and pasted this, and i have confirmed it by also looking in the "good news bible" todays english version .

6 If your very own brother, or your son or daughter, or the wife you love, or your closest friend secretly entices you, saying, "Let us go and worship other gods" (gods that neither you nor your fathers have known, 7 gods of the peoples around you, whether near or far, from one end of the land to the other), 8 do not yield to him or listen to him. Show him no pity. Do not spare him or shield him. 9 You must certainly put him to death. Your hand must be the first in putting him to death, and then the hands of all the people. 10 Stone him to death, because he tried to turn you away from the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. 11 Then all Israel will hear and be afraid, and no one among you will do such an evil thing again.

well well well... this is pretty good stuff. tell you the truth this is why i just so happen to be an antitheist. and honestly, i don't think that if i believed in "the lord" that i would want to go to heaven. frankly, he would scare the living shit out of me. what do you think he would do if you said lord your a dick. hey what happened to bill? he got bashed in the head by the lord with a fucking rock, died on the spot. wtf happened? he called him a dick.

please deal with one more, i promise not to constantly burn you out on too many of these. 1 more and i am done with the bible today i swear to god. HAH im kidding, well i promise it's the last for the day.

1 The LORD said to Moses, 2 "Say to the Israelites: 'When anyone sins unintentionally and does what is forbidden in any of the LORD's commands-
3 " 'If the anointed priest sins, bringing guilt on the people, he must bring to the LORD a young bull without defect as a sin offering for the sin he has committed. 4 He is to present the bull at the entrance to the Tent of Meeting before the LORD. He is to lay his hand on its head and slaughter it before the LORD. 5 Then the anointed priest shall take some of the bull's blood and carry it into the Tent of Meeting. 6 He is to dip his finger into the blood and sprinkle some of it seven times before the LORD, in front of the curtain of the sanctuary. 7 The priest shall then put some of the blood on the horns of the altar of fragrant incense that is before the LORD in the Tent of Meeting. The rest of the bull's blood he shall pour out at the base of the altar of burnt offering at the entrance to the Tent of Meeting. 8 He shall remove all the fat from the bull of the sin offering—the fat that covers the inner parts or is connected to them, 9 both kidneys with the fat on them near the loins, and the covering of the liver, which he will remove with the kidneys- 10 just as the fat is removed from the ox [a] sacrificed as a fellowship offering. [b] Then the priest shall burn them on the altar of burnt offering. 11 But the hide of the bull and all its flesh, as well as the head and legs, the inner parts and offal- 12 that is, all the rest of the bull—he must take outside the camp to a place ceremonially clean, where the ashes are thrown, and burn it in a wood fire on the ash heap.

fuck it you can just kill me or whatever, this sounds way to fucking complicated for an accidental mistake. but i promise not to only slow down to 2 mph at a stop sign again. i will come to a complete stop and look both ways twice!
ok i made a promise and i intend to keep it! now i have found a scripture i'd like to reccomend, it's leviticus 18:1-30. "forbidden sexual practices.

bah! it's day 4 and i can honestly say that this is the longest i have been without alcohal since the late 90's-early 2000's. even though it has been a little tough, i have had no huge urges to drink anything other than water or diet soda. work has kept me more than occupied for the week as we are now on thursday heading into friday for most people, and i am on pace for a 55+ hr work week. 60 w/breaks. my body is physically exhausted, but my mind has been wide awake. i can not say that i have slept for more than 4 hours a night mostly because of distractions i'd like to think. i received 2 fantastic messages from t-mobile basically telling me what i allready know which is that my blackberry is fucked up. i received a call from an old apartment complex that i used to live at, so that they could tell me how incompetent that they all were. i had my maintinance guy at my current complex knock at my door to ask me for my garage opener since it was fucked up as it has been for a week. now he came by at 9am which my wife has told all of these ignorant assholes to please stop fucking with me before 2pm as i work nights and attempt to sleep from 6am-2pm. well i give him the damn thing anyway and he walks away and guess what, my little dog thought it would be a fantastic time to chase the man out the door. thanks pook! so i said fuck it, ill watch a movie on the couch and try to go back to bed turn on the dvd player which my old dog ate the remote for, put in the dvd and it was scratched and skipping no more than 2 minutes into the movie. so i am edgy due to the shock of not having any alcohol, and everyone is fucking with me!

thanks for being kind enough to read my thoughts for the day, and wish me luck through my 1st alcohol free weekend!

day 2

not much to say about today, it's been a pretty shitty day at work but a rather peaceful day in my mind. got home from work around 4 its almost 6 now. i've played about 350 hands of poker at micro stakes and i am down about 5 bucks. o well it's cheaper than drinking. i work with one of the dumbest assholes in the history of assholes. this guy told me that he once smoked crack. this is no fucking bullshit. this guy is so fucking ignorant that he can't read the word chevrolet, and thats what kind of truck he owns... i feel bad for the guy because hes such a hopeless douchebag, but i still equally hate him.
i ate at thundercloud today had a turkey sandwich and a bag of baked lays, ever since this quitting alcohol deal i have told myself that i am going to try to eat healthy again. working out is still impossible with the hours that i work. my brain has seriously been all over the place today i think the remaining brain cells that i have are beggining to breathe again.
ready for a shower and sleep now.

Day 1

So I have never blogged before, but I have decided that today is a good day to begin. I am an alcoholic and i have been considering quitting alcohol all together. I am a daily drinker now and it has honestly gotten way out of hand. Drinking 6-12 beers on a nightly basis sometimes even 18-20 on a weekend night. I work about 55 hours a week and the rest of it is usually spent with a beer in my hand until i go to sleep. I am not looking for sympothy or even support, as this is something that I got into myself and now I am basically at the bottem of a big hole looking up. Today will be my 1st sober day in over a week and about the 2nd since new years. I am about to pour out around 100 dollars worth of whiskey, vodka, tequila, beer, rum, and whatever else I may have in my house. I am not expecting this to be easy, as quitting any addiction ever is. In due time I would like to apologize to anyone that I may have hurt or humiliated during my 12 year span as a consumer. It's all a bit hazy but i got drunk for the first time at the age of 15. I was a moderate drinker from 16-18, a bit crazy at the 19-23 range, more of a daily consumer from 24-27, and now I am 28 and pounding every drink I can. I have a history of depression, and it has been my way of coping basically half of my life "all of my adult life". If I was capable of just drinking on occassion I would do that, but I really just enjoy getting drunk alone every night. I don't think that alcohal is bad in moderation, I am just not a moderation style person. i will blog again soon everyday may not be possible, but i will have some free time on my hands so wish me luck.