was god a man or woman?
this is a very common question to most christians,
was god a man or woman?
i would say that most would say he was a man. now if this was not a fictitious charactor, i would say man. why? biblical pictures indicate he had a fucking beard. so lets debate. a dumb ass debate at that. was a fictitious charactor who went by the name of jesus a man or woman? god was the one who created it all. he created himself. he created man. he created woman. he created himself before man or woman. he has no cock and no pussy, because he created himself before these 2 things existed. because he had not created them yet, he had to be a man? its like a childrens story when the child says mom so how did the cow save his family? the mother looks curious and simply says faith.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
the world as you know it, i'm no crazier than you
212 years ago, the dragonfly god jerumino (heh-room-ino) created the planet earth from a fragment of dust off of the planet veijoo (vee-eh-who), commonly know as "the moon". jerumino created all living and non-living things on the earth in 3 minutes. jerumino the dragonfly was in fact not a person, but a dragonfly. in the year 1898 a.d. or 100 years after jerumino created the world jerumino became angry with the world, and filled the land with the creatures known as umbientes (ooh-m-bee-in-tays), commonly known as "dinosaurs". the umbientes were all human flesh eating beast. the umbientes killed all but 2 humans in the year 113, or 1903 a.d. in 115 or 1905 a.d. mahjimbur and janet (mah-heembur and janet), were the only 2 survivors. they had 2 monkeys and a snake. the monkeys gringeviti and peghnukcinson and the snake lucifer. the creater of the earth jerumino told mahjimbur and janet that they must sacrifice the only snake that they had to him and he would allow them to have sex with the monkeys, to re-create the living population on the earth. so they did. lucifer however was not happy about this. and he told jerumino, why jerumino, i have been your loyal snake my entire life and this is how you treat me? i will make it my goal to defeat you. so jerumino told lucifer, you are banned from uladian (you-lay-dee-an) commonly known as heaven. and you are damned to crawl below the earth in tianokkashioneyshin (tea-ah-no-kah-she-own-e-shin).
the world as you know it, i'm no crazier than you
this will probobly never be continued...
i recently bought another ben folds album, "songs for silverman". it's pretty much like the others, amazing. i'll leave you with these lyrics.
Under some dirty words on a dirty wall
Eating takeout by myself
I played the shows
Got back in the van and put the Walkman on
And you were playing
In some other dive a thousand miles away
I played a thousand times before
And like pathetic stars, the truck stops and the rock club walls
I always knew
You saw them too
But you never will again
It's too late
Don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time
Elliott, man, you played a fine guitar
And some dirty basketball
The songs you wrote
Got me through a lot
Just wanna tell you that
But it's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
it's been too late
for a long time
Oh no
Things were looking up
Least that's what I heard
Oh no
Someone came and washed away your hard-earned
Peace of mind
When desperate static beats the silence up
A quiet truth to calm you down
The songs you wrote
Got me through a lot
Just wanna tell you that
But it's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time
It's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time
the world as you know it, i'm no crazier than you
this will probobly never be continued...
i recently bought another ben folds album, "songs for silverman". it's pretty much like the others, amazing. i'll leave you with these lyrics.
Under some dirty words on a dirty wall
Eating takeout by myself
I played the shows
Got back in the van and put the Walkman on
And you were playing
In some other dive a thousand miles away
I played a thousand times before
And like pathetic stars, the truck stops and the rock club walls
I always knew
You saw them too
But you never will again
It's too late
Don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time
Elliott, man, you played a fine guitar
And some dirty basketball
The songs you wrote
Got me through a lot
Just wanna tell you that
But it's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
it's been too late
for a long time
Oh no
Things were looking up
Least that's what I heard
Oh no
Someone came and washed away your hard-earned
Peace of mind
When desperate static beats the silence up
A quiet truth to calm you down
The songs you wrote
Got me through a lot
Just wanna tell you that
But it's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time
It's too late
It's too late
No, don't you know
It's been too late
For a long time
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
so easy
laid on the couch for almost 4 hours eating pizza and watching poker. time to shower and get ready for the day tommorow. fucking exhausted. i am really starting to dig this lazy after work thing that i've got going on. no christians are fucktarded comments tonight, just time to shower and sleep.
leaving you with this one...
Catholics are against abortions.
Catholics are against homosexuals.
But, I can't think of anyone who has less abortions than homosexuals! -- George Carlin
leaving you with this one...
Catholics are against abortions.
Catholics are against homosexuals.
But, I can't think of anyone who has less abortions than homosexuals! -- George Carlin
Friday, October 1, 2010
when life hands you lemons
Bought the new jimmy eat world, pretty durn good. I have over 40 GB used on my i-pod and not a GOD DAMN THING TO LISTEN TOO!!! I love Fridays, but I fucking hate Mondays. Every Friday means Monday is that much closer... Fuck me.
We cannot learn fear of God and the basic principles of godliness, unless we are pierced by the sword of the Spirit and destroyed. It is as if God were saying that to rank among his sons our ordinary natures must be wiped out.
-- Calvin, John
FUCKING GAY
really not sure what gets into people. do i want to die? no, not at all. am i scared of death? sure, at times. why not believe in god? why not live in middle earth? i like the story a lot more, and it seems quiet realistic in comparison.
We cannot learn fear of God and the basic principles of godliness, unless we are pierced by the sword of the Spirit and destroyed. It is as if God were saying that to rank among his sons our ordinary natures must be wiped out.
-- Calvin, John
FUCKING GAY
really not sure what gets into people. do i want to die? no, not at all. am i scared of death? sure, at times. why not believe in god? why not live in middle earth? i like the story a lot more, and it seems quiet realistic in comparison.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
to a movie
I am trying to figure out which movie I am going to take the old ball and chain to. I know its either get him to the greek or grown ups. tough choices tough choices. my new dog dex is pretty kick ass, even though little kylie is trying to fuck him. and i was gonna smoke a briscuit today but... i slept in so pluckers it is! FUCK YEAH!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
A FUCKING TARD
The following was a posting on facebook, and it basically made me have to blog.
I pledge allegiance to the Flag of the United States of America, and to the REPUBLIC for which it stands: one
Nation under GOD, indivisible, With Liberty and Justice for all. REPOST
IF YOU THINK OUR COUNTRY AND OUR FLAG DESERVE RESPECT! Let's see how
many will repost
Yeah, you real fucking patriotic you fucking turd faggot. I fucking hate these little cock-mouth fuck-head assholes.
I am currently listening to deftones & ben folds, nice little mix.
Where the fuck have I been?
I'd been looking for a new fucking job.
What the fuck has been up?
I got a new phone, new house, new job, and a new truck.
A new truck?
Look it's not some massive diesel redneck fuckhead truck.
A new job?
Yeah so far 8-5 is not the worst thing in the world.
A suit and tie job?
no...
A new house?
jealous?
A new phone?
Motoralla Cliq, or click* IDFK
What the fuck is up with you?
I kind of am you...
deuty deuty deuty,
26 But you were unwilling to go up; you rebelled against the command of the LORD your God. 27 You grumbled in your tents and said, "The LORD hates us; so he brought us out of Egypt to deliver us into the hands of the Amorites to destroy us. 28 Where can we go? Our brothers have made us lose heart. They say, 'The people are stronger and taller than we are; the cities are large, with walls up to the sky. We even saw the Anakites there.' "
29 Then I said to you, "Do not be terrified; do not be afraid of them. 30 The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, 31 and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place."
32 In spite of this, you did not trust in the LORD your God, 33 who went ahead of you on your journey, in fire by night and in a cloud by day, to search out places for you to camp and to show you the way you should go.
34 When the LORD heard what you said, he was angry and solemnly swore: 35 "Not a man of this evil generation shall see the good land I swore to give your forefathers, 36 except Caleb son of Jephunneh. He will see it, and I will give him and his descendants the land he set his feet on, because he followed the LORD wholeheartedly."
37 Because of you the LORD became angry with me also and said, "You shall not enter it, either. 38 But your assistant, Joshua son of Nun, will enter it. Encourage him, because he will lead Israel to inherit it. 39 And the little ones that you said would be taken captive, your children who do not yet know good from bad—they will enter the land. I will give it to them and they will take possession of it. 40 But as for you, turn around and set out toward the desert along the route to the Red Sea. [a] "
41 Then you replied, "We have sinned against the LORD. We will go up and fight, as the LORD our God commanded us." So every one of you put on his weapons, thinking it easy to go up into the hill country.
42 But the LORD said to me, "Tell them, 'Do not go up and fight, because I will not be with you. You will be defeated by your enemies.' "
43 So I told you, but you would not listen. You rebelled against the LORD's command and in your arrogance you marched up into the hill country. 44 The Amorites who lived in those hills came out against you; they chased you like a swarm of bees and beat you down from Seir all the way to Hormah. 45 You came back and wept before the LORD, but he paid no attention to your weeping and turned a deaf ear to you. 46 And so you stayed in Kadesh many days—all the time you spent there.
...well fuck...
I pledge allegiance to the Flag of the United States of America, and to the REPUBLIC for which it stands: one
Nation under GOD, indivisible, With Liberty and Justice for all. REPOST
IF YOU THINK OUR COUNTRY AND OUR FLAG DESERVE RESPECT! Let's see how
many will repost
Yeah, you real fucking patriotic you fucking turd faggot. I fucking hate these little cock-mouth fuck-head assholes.
I am currently listening to deftones & ben folds, nice little mix.
Where the fuck have I been?
I'd been looking for a new fucking job.
What the fuck has been up?
I got a new phone, new house, new job, and a new truck.
A new truck?
Look it's not some massive diesel redneck fuckhead truck.
A new job?
Yeah so far 8-5 is not the worst thing in the world.
A suit and tie job?
no...
A new house?
jealous?
A new phone?
Motoralla Cliq, or click* IDFK
What the fuck is up with you?
I kind of am you...
deuty deuty deuty,
26 But you were unwilling to go up; you rebelled against the command of the LORD your God. 27 You grumbled in your tents and said, "The LORD hates us; so he brought us out of Egypt to deliver us into the hands of the Amorites to destroy us. 28 Where can we go? Our brothers have made us lose heart. They say, 'The people are stronger and taller than we are; the cities are large, with walls up to the sky. We even saw the Anakites there.' "
29 Then I said to you, "Do not be terrified; do not be afraid of them. 30 The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, 31 and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place."
32 In spite of this, you did not trust in the LORD your God, 33 who went ahead of you on your journey, in fire by night and in a cloud by day, to search out places for you to camp and to show you the way you should go.
34 When the LORD heard what you said, he was angry and solemnly swore: 35 "Not a man of this evil generation shall see the good land I swore to give your forefathers, 36 except Caleb son of Jephunneh. He will see it, and I will give him and his descendants the land he set his feet on, because he followed the LORD wholeheartedly."
37 Because of you the LORD became angry with me also and said, "You shall not enter it, either. 38 But your assistant, Joshua son of Nun, will enter it. Encourage him, because he will lead Israel to inherit it. 39 And the little ones that you said would be taken captive, your children who do not yet know good from bad—they will enter the land. I will give it to them and they will take possession of it. 40 But as for you, turn around and set out toward the desert along the route to the Red Sea. [a] "
41 Then you replied, "We have sinned against the LORD. We will go up and fight, as the LORD our God commanded us." So every one of you put on his weapons, thinking it easy to go up into the hill country.
42 But the LORD said to me, "Tell them, 'Do not go up and fight, because I will not be with you. You will be defeated by your enemies.' "
43 So I told you, but you would not listen. You rebelled against the LORD's command and in your arrogance you marched up into the hill country. 44 The Amorites who lived in those hills came out against you; they chased you like a swarm of bees and beat you down from Seir all the way to Hormah. 45 You came back and wept before the LORD, but he paid no attention to your weeping and turned a deaf ear to you. 46 And so you stayed in Kadesh many days—all the time you spent there.
...well fuck...
Monday, March 15, 2010
sleepy sunday back to work
bought a fridge, microwave, and a classy ryans steakhouse dinner. looking forward to another kick ass week at work! retard moment of last week, the master of all special people left a note that said ( Temple driver wood not take reterns.) this was not a typo, this was pen and motha fucking paper. I don't hate my job, I hate the ignorant fucking co-workers that are kind enough to show up daily. fuck talking about work, i'll be doing it all week. to be real honest with you, i'm not sure if there was a point in this blog tonight. i've been jamming the new gorillaz and alpha rev albums. my wifes alarm just went off time to go for now.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
You can say what you want you're forgiven
over a month sober which is a new record probably dating back to before i had a drivers license. i must say have a taken a new addiction in sodas. waialua root beer is a fantastic Hawaiian cane sugar root beer, virgils is also pretty awesome. i bought my 2nd i-pod touch today and returned my 2nd i-pod touch today. every time i spend 350 bucks on one of these things i regret it immediately. i have yet to have left the parking lot when i puss out and give it to my wife to return for me. i mean my damn i-pod classic just won't die. "completely". screens fucked, shuts off at random times. but fuck, it's kind of like your first car. i had 4-5 mp3 player before this one, but i have had this one for 3+ years. in case you can't tell, i am a pretty big music buff. and don't recommend something if you think i will like it because i wont. have you ever listened to modest mouse from the 90's ? pretty fucking incredible. i have an old school book called property management staring me in the face nightly. real estate is my one passion, and it's the scariest thing to get into. i mean I'm working 65 hour work weeks right now, and that's monday-friday. yes that's a little over 54% of my day spent in this fucking machine, but i do it for fear of failing in the world of real estate. i went to college for real estate and probably know more about it from every aspect then most brokers. but don't forget the one thing that's holding me back is that im a GIANT PUSSY! we can predict the weather, we can walk on the moon, i can communicate with someone in taiwan, we can build a phone that can show me where to grow some nutts, but we can't see a fucking earthquake before it arrives. that's fucking fucked up priorities.
have i told ya have i told ya that you can really get it on?
modest mouse
bankrupt on selling
well all the apostles-they're sitting in swings saying
"i'd sell off my savior for a set of new rings
and some sandles with the style of straps that cling best to the era
so all of the businessers in their unlimitedhell
where they buy and they sell and they sell all their trash to each other
but they're sick of it all
and they're bankrupt on selling
and all of the angels
they'd sell off yer soul for a set of new wings
and anything gold
they remember the people they loved
their old friends i've seen through'em all seen through'em all and seen through most everything
all the people you knew were the actorsall the people you knew were the actorswell, i'll go to college and i'll learn some big words
and i'll talk real loud
goddamn right i'll be heard
you'll remember all the guys that said all those big words
he must've learned in college
and it took a long time
i came clean with myself
i come clean out of love with my lover
i still love her
loved her more when she used to be sober and i was kinder
have i told ya have i told ya that you can really get it on?
modest mouse
bankrupt on selling
well all the apostles-they're sitting in swings saying
"i'd sell off my savior for a set of new rings
and some sandles with the style of straps that cling best to the era
so all of the businessers in their unlimitedhell
where they buy and they sell and they sell all their trash to each other
but they're sick of it all
and they're bankrupt on selling
and all of the angels
they'd sell off yer soul for a set of new wings
and anything gold
they remember the people they loved
their old friends i've seen through'em all seen through'em all and seen through most everything
all the people you knew were the actorsall the people you knew were the actorswell, i'll go to college and i'll learn some big words
and i'll talk real loud
goddamn right i'll be heard
you'll remember all the guys that said all those big words
he must've learned in college
and it took a long time
i came clean with myself
i come clean out of love with my lover
i still love her
loved her more when she used to be sober and i was kinder
Saturday, February 27, 2010
so sleepy you can't sleep
the end of a long week is finally here and all i can do is stay awake and cherish the moment of being off work. my body shut down a few hours ago, my mind is not sharp, but it's turned on. i have a long list of things to do this weekend but i may just say screw it all and lock myself in my apartment. 625 in the am, and i am still awake. i don't know what the fuck for. has your mind ever wandered so far away you find yourself staring at a keyboard and wonder how it got there? well.... just did.... i just made a purchase of the smashing pumpkins american gothic ep. it's not bad at all, considering the last full album they put out.
i apologize, there will be no talk of the old testament today. i have not done any reading this week so at this point it would be pointless. i love everyone who reads my retarded fucking blog, but please make sure to know this, i am not saying that you are dumb or ignorant for believing one way or the other. i don't believe. it's my choice, it's your choice whatever. i have sort of simply put up a blog for my own personal reasons, and every one who has chosen to read it has chosen on your own. i appreciate the readers, however i don't give a shit if you give a shit, or even give a shit if you think that by you giving a shit should make me give a shit about giving a shit.
what ever happened to that guy "boner" from growing pains? for those of you who don't know he was found dead earlier, sad story depression kills.
i saw a movie the other day called "the invention of lying" with ricky gervais. pretty good movie i'd say.
there was absolutely no reason for the previous 2 statements.
well folks i think im gonna keep it short and lame tonight, so long for tonight. ill leave you with this one bitches.
smashing pumpkins...the rose march
i apologize, there will be no talk of the old testament today. i have not done any reading this week so at this point it would be pointless. i love everyone who reads my retarded fucking blog, but please make sure to know this, i am not saying that you are dumb or ignorant for believing one way or the other. i don't believe. it's my choice, it's your choice whatever. i have sort of simply put up a blog for my own personal reasons, and every one who has chosen to read it has chosen on your own. i appreciate the readers, however i don't give a shit if you give a shit, or even give a shit if you think that by you giving a shit should make me give a shit about giving a shit.
what ever happened to that guy "boner" from growing pains? for those of you who don't know he was found dead earlier, sad story depression kills.
i saw a movie the other day called "the invention of lying" with ricky gervais. pretty good movie i'd say.
there was absolutely no reason for the previous 2 statements.
well folks i think im gonna keep it short and lame tonight, so long for tonight. ill leave you with this one bitches.
smashing pumpkins...the rose march
La da daLa da da da daLa la la laLa da daLa da da da daLa la la laLa da daLa da da da daLa la la laSlowpokedAnd cross-eyedPigeon-toed to the railroad tiesHumpbackedAnd sugar shackedShotgun wed toThe poison of our pastA little longerA little longer to goYou've a little longerA little longer to goI just can't help say soCan't you see meCan't you see me at allInner-spacedAnd pie-facedYou catch the moonI'll just stand here and run in placeShell-shockedAnd half-cockedThe universe is full of black holes, and anniversary knotsA little longer to goYou've a little longerA little longer to goYou've a little longer to goCan't you see me at allCan't you see meCan't you see me at allCan't you see meCan't you see meCan't you see me at allI'll lay roses at your feetTill you decide there is something great in youI'll lay roses at your feetTill you decide there is something great in youLa da daLa da da da daWe've only just begun to grieve the spaceWe've only just begun to grieve the space, the spaceWe've only just begun to grieve the space, the space
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
29 is not a month but more than a month in the month of february
fucking exhausted. so im gonna fill most of this shit with scriptures and what not. man o man do i hate monday's, i go to sleep after work friday and wake up monday... not really but it sure does seem like it. got off at 420 this lovely morning and it's supposed to snow tomorrow. this weather sucks fat nutts. it has been brought to my attention that my blogs have a lot of profanity in them and i'd like to apologize to anyone who reads them and takes offense to all of the vulgarity. seriously though i don't care the least if it pisses you off. don't fucking read it. the use of the "f" word is sort of similar to "really" for you. if someone said hey buddy your fired, some people may say really, i'd say fuck! or god dammit! or COCK SHIT BALLS! i've been ranting all this shit to write for 4 hours on the road tonight, i got home and had a total brain queef.
17 For forty days the flood kept coming on the earth, and as the waters increased they lifted the ark high above the earth. 18 The waters rose and increased greatly on the earth, and the ark floated on the surface of the water. 19 They rose greatly on the earth, and all the high mountains under the entire heavens were covered. 20 The waters rose and covered the mountains to a depth of more than twenty feet. [b] , [c] 21 Every living thing that moved on the earth perished—birds, livestock, wild animals, all the creatures that swarm over the earth, and all mankind. 22 Everything on dry land that had the breath of life in its nostrils died. 23 Every living thing on the face of the earth was wiped out; men and animals and the creatures that move along the ground and the birds of the air were wiped from the earth. Only Noah was left, and those with him in the ark.
24 The waters flooded the earth for a hundred and fifty days.
so.... turtles, alligators, ducks, snakes, frogs, fish... they all died? creatures that live and breathe on both land and water, or at least in water. not to mention many others I'm sure. is it possible that 40 consecutive days of rain could cover a mountain? kind of seems like seattle and london should be under water as well. this is one of those scriptures that i have to scratch my head over. lucky for noah he was the only man on the planet earth that owned a flotation device such as a boat.
taken from komonews.com Jan 10, 2006
Wednesday marked the 24th straight day of measurable rain in Seattle, tying it for the third-longest streak ever. The Dec. 19 start to the streak also means that, true to Seattle form, it rained on every day during the winter holiday break for the area's schools -- but then it kept right on going after school resumed, so "winter break" is no answer to our riddle.
And this hasn't been just the usual Seattle drizzle, we've had some pretty impressive rainfall through the streak -- 14 of the 24 days have been greater than 0.25", and seven of those days were over a half inch. Now, the official record for consecutive days of rain is 33 days set in 1953
so, in 1953 it rained for 33 days. with no serious threat of losing all of the land or lands creatures in seattle. depressing and miserable? i'm sure but it didn't wipe out all but 2 people, and i don't believe any of them were in an ark. bartender please fill my glass for me.
why do i love this song??
dmtr
Little red bird under a chairWaiting for the crumbs to fallDaddy said "Get a job"Well don't you see, Daddy, how good I am at catching crumbs?Guns and gods and little red birdsGuns and gods and little red birdsGeneral Custer is sadOverestimated his abilities to winSitting Bull turned the table on himA comfort to count the battles won after the war is lostLittle red birdGuns and gods and little red birdsGuns and gods and little red birdsA comfort to count the battles won after the war is lostGoodbyeComfort to count the battles won after the war is lostGuns and gods and little red birdsGuns and gods and little red birdsComfort to count the battles won after the war is lostIf there was a place hidden in the starsReflectin' on heaven's gracesIf God had an honest faceA troubled expression would be watching the human race
17 For forty days the flood kept coming on the earth, and as the waters increased they lifted the ark high above the earth. 18 The waters rose and increased greatly on the earth, and the ark floated on the surface of the water. 19 They rose greatly on the earth, and all the high mountains under the entire heavens were covered. 20 The waters rose and covered the mountains to a depth of more than twenty feet. [b] , [c] 21 Every living thing that moved on the earth perished—birds, livestock, wild animals, all the creatures that swarm over the earth, and all mankind. 22 Everything on dry land that had the breath of life in its nostrils died. 23 Every living thing on the face of the earth was wiped out; men and animals and the creatures that move along the ground and the birds of the air were wiped from the earth. Only Noah was left, and those with him in the ark.
24 The waters flooded the earth for a hundred and fifty days.
so.... turtles, alligators, ducks, snakes, frogs, fish... they all died? creatures that live and breathe on both land and water, or at least in water. not to mention many others I'm sure. is it possible that 40 consecutive days of rain could cover a mountain? kind of seems like seattle and london should be under water as well. this is one of those scriptures that i have to scratch my head over. lucky for noah he was the only man on the planet earth that owned a flotation device such as a boat.
taken from komonews.com Jan 10, 2006
Wednesday marked the 24th straight day of measurable rain in Seattle, tying it for the third-longest streak ever. The Dec. 19 start to the streak also means that, true to Seattle form, it rained on every day during the winter holiday break for the area's schools -- but then it kept right on going after school resumed, so "winter break" is no answer to our riddle.
And this hasn't been just the usual Seattle drizzle, we've had some pretty impressive rainfall through the streak -- 14 of the 24 days have been greater than 0.25", and seven of those days were over a half inch. Now, the official record for consecutive days of rain is 33 days set in 1953
so, in 1953 it rained for 33 days. with no serious threat of losing all of the land or lands creatures in seattle. depressing and miserable? i'm sure but it didn't wipe out all but 2 people, and i don't believe any of them were in an ark. bartender please fill my glass for me.
why do i love this song??
dmtr
Little red bird under a chairWaiting for the crumbs to fallDaddy said "Get a job"Well don't you see, Daddy, how good I am at catching crumbs?Guns and gods and little red birdsGuns and gods and little red birdsGeneral Custer is sadOverestimated his abilities to winSitting Bull turned the table on himA comfort to count the battles won after the war is lostLittle red birdGuns and gods and little red birdsGuns and gods and little red birdsA comfort to count the battles won after the war is lostGoodbyeComfort to count the battles won after the war is lostGuns and gods and little red birdsGuns and gods and little red birdsComfort to count the battles won after the war is lostIf there was a place hidden in the starsReflectin' on heaven's gracesIf God had an honest faceA troubled expression would be watching the human race
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Day 23 + technological dump + wreck = dmtr
And then I sing and dance
Lalala hey, lalala hey, lalala
Sing and dance
Lalala hey, lalala hey, lalala
i have to be the typo king, but give me a break im exhausted.
so, i get home from work to see that my computer has taken a nap. we will see if this is a bigger problem then i can handle later i suppose. my i-pod has some random black lines shooting through the middle of the screen now which is fucking awesome. whats funny is that i have been planning on getting a new computer and a new i-pod touch for quiet a while now, but whenever your about to purchase a new home for the 1st time it's difficult. so for the record gateway you can go fuck yourself. in the movie me, myself, and irene, there is a scene were jimcarey puts some money in a vending machine for a soda, and it takes his money. not once but twice this happens. there is a man watching him and when the machine takes his money twice the man says to jim carey that he is a fucking idiot. not only did the machine jack his money once, it did it twice! and you fell for it both times! try it again buddy maybe the 3rd time it will work. well this is the 2nd gateway computer that i have purchased, and i must say that i feel a bit like jim at the moment . it just so happens that my computer is sort of my life. i have around 900,000 hands of poker that seem to be lost which is a damn shame. i am not sure if i can transfer my i-tunes onto a new computer if i get one. at this exact moment jills laptop has decided to eat my brand new dave matthews tim reynolds cd. fucking piece of shit. ok sorry. for the record i don't wish to bash i-tunes or any i-device whether it be software or hardware beings how i think that these are the best products on the fucking planet. but what the fuck am i going to do if my i-pod and computer are fucked?!?!?!?!?!??!
my job sux fat, sweaty, herpe infested balls.
"i really wanted to get that out there".
tonight i saw 4 fire trucks and at least 10 patrol cars and 3 ambulances for what seemed to be a semi-truck on its side, cars scattered around the median. as i flew by it at 70 just kind of thought what would have happened if i was on that side of the road? well i wasn't so i am glad for that. is that fair? is it ok that someone may have died and i tell myself better him/her or maybe them instead of me? i've got to much going for me right now so better that poor schmuck. the world is a really fucked up place. but when its all said and done, like the true asshole and selfish son of a bitch that i am i have to say one thing.... better them than me.
pretty shitty depressing blog to come back to after over 2 weeks off. however i can't say with a straight face that it was all bad. on my drive after all of this, i popped in dave matthews tim reynolds live in vegas cd. which i purchased this weekend, and i recommend everyone else who has a pulse should do as well. i heard the song loving wings, which can bring tears to your eyes because of its simplistic beauty. dave matthews and tim reynolds are in my opinion by far the best duo in the history of music. every song on live at radio city hit home for me, and this new cd is growing on me faster and stronger than maybe any other cd has.
dmtr-loving wings
My heart was made of broken bones
My soul a bag of stick and stone
But you along this dusty road
Have come my love to take me home.
So I give to you my everything
You've given me these loving wings
Angels have all gathered 'round
To hear me sing my love out loud.
Your lightly love lifted me away
Out of a darkness cold and gray
Now I work beneath the midday sun
My cool blue water you have come.
So I give to you my everything
You've given me these loving wings
Angels have all gathered 'round
To hear me sing my love out loud.
So take your place here next to me
And I'll take my place there next to thee
And no matter how far we may roam
It's by your side I'll make my home.
So I give to you my everything
You've given me these loving wings
Angels have all gathered 'round
To hear me sing my love out loud.
Lalala hey, lalala hey, lalala
Sing and dance
Lalala hey, lalala hey, lalala
i have to be the typo king, but give me a break im exhausted.
so, i get home from work to see that my computer has taken a nap. we will see if this is a bigger problem then i can handle later i suppose. my i-pod has some random black lines shooting through the middle of the screen now which is fucking awesome. whats funny is that i have been planning on getting a new computer and a new i-pod touch for quiet a while now, but whenever your about to purchase a new home for the 1st time it's difficult. so for the record gateway you can go fuck yourself. in the movie me, myself, and irene, there is a scene were jimcarey puts some money in a vending machine for a soda, and it takes his money. not once but twice this happens. there is a man watching him and when the machine takes his money twice the man says to jim carey that he is a fucking idiot. not only did the machine jack his money once, it did it twice! and you fell for it both times! try it again buddy maybe the 3rd time it will work. well this is the 2nd gateway computer that i have purchased, and i must say that i feel a bit like jim at the moment . it just so happens that my computer is sort of my life. i have around 900,000 hands of poker that seem to be lost which is a damn shame. i am not sure if i can transfer my i-tunes onto a new computer if i get one. at this exact moment jills laptop has decided to eat my brand new dave matthews tim reynolds cd. fucking piece of shit. ok sorry. for the record i don't wish to bash i-tunes or any i-device whether it be software or hardware beings how i think that these are the best products on the fucking planet. but what the fuck am i going to do if my i-pod and computer are fucked?!?!?!?!?!??!
my job sux fat, sweaty, herpe infested balls.
"i really wanted to get that out there".
tonight i saw 4 fire trucks and at least 10 patrol cars and 3 ambulances for what seemed to be a semi-truck on its side, cars scattered around the median. as i flew by it at 70 just kind of thought what would have happened if i was on that side of the road? well i wasn't so i am glad for that. is that fair? is it ok that someone may have died and i tell myself better him/her or maybe them instead of me? i've got to much going for me right now so better that poor schmuck. the world is a really fucked up place. but when its all said and done, like the true asshole and selfish son of a bitch that i am i have to say one thing.... better them than me.
pretty shitty depressing blog to come back to after over 2 weeks off. however i can't say with a straight face that it was all bad. on my drive after all of this, i popped in dave matthews tim reynolds live in vegas cd. which i purchased this weekend, and i recommend everyone else who has a pulse should do as well. i heard the song loving wings, which can bring tears to your eyes because of its simplistic beauty. dave matthews and tim reynolds are in my opinion by far the best duo in the history of music. every song on live at radio city hit home for me, and this new cd is growing on me faster and stronger than maybe any other cd has.
dmtr-loving wings
My heart was made of broken bones
My soul a bag of stick and stone
But you along this dusty road
Have come my love to take me home.
So I give to you my everything
You've given me these loving wings
Angels have all gathered 'round
To hear me sing my love out loud.
Your lightly love lifted me away
Out of a darkness cold and gray
Now I work beneath the midday sun
My cool blue water you have come.
So I give to you my everything
You've given me these loving wings
Angels have all gathered 'round
To hear me sing my love out loud.
So take your place here next to me
And I'll take my place there next to thee
And no matter how far we may roam
It's by your side I'll make my home.
So I give to you my everything
You've given me these loving wings
Angels have all gathered 'round
To hear me sing my love out loud.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
genesis 34 + day 5 = the weekend!
well since it's the weekend i will go easy, as i am not hating life quiet as much at the moment. i can be a very irritable prick sometimes, i'm not all that sure of how my wife deals with my mood swings, but she does so wonderfully. now in case you just so happen to think that your job sucks, you can feel free to take mine. i go to work at 3pm and work in a warehouse till midnight, then i hop into a 24 ft bob-tail (truck) and drive to san antonio arrive there at 1:30 unload and pick up freight. then i get back to austin around 3 am and unload my truck. im home by 4am every night. what the fuck am i doing bitching? it's the weekend. i apologize.
well im not gonna leave you hanging so we will jump into the scripture of the day. i quickly found this, as i do with most of the others that i will post. it struck my attention very quickly. i believe that morals were totally different around back in the biblical days. this is a little bit of a lengthy scripture so it will be the only one for this blog. but this scripture really hit me hard.
Genesis 34
1NOW DINAH daughter of Leah, whom she bore to Jacob, went out [unattended] to see the girls of the place.
2And when Shechem son of Hamor the Hivite, prince of the country, saw her, he seized her, lay with her, and humbled, defiled, and disgraced her.
3But his soul longed for and clung to Dinah daughter of Jacob, and he loved the girl and spoke comfortingly to her young heart's wishes.
4And Shechem said to his father Hamor, Get me this girl to be my wife.
5Jacob heard that [Shechem] had defiled Dinah his daughter. Now his sons were with his livestock in the field. So Jacob held his peace until they came.
6But Hamor father of Shechem went out to Jacob to have a talk with him.
7When Jacob's sons heard it, they came from the field; and they were distressed and grieved and very angry, for [Shechem] had done a vile thing to Israel in lying with Jacob's daughter, which ought not to be done.
8And Hamor conferred with them, saying, The soul of my son Shechem craves your daughter [and sister]. I beg of you give her to him to be his wife.
9And make marriages with us and give your daughters to us and take our daughters to you.
10You shall dwell with us; the country will be open to you; live and trade and get your possessions in it.
11And Shechem said to [Dinah's] father and to her brothers, Let me find favor in your eyes, and I will give you whatever you ask of me.
12Ask me ever so much dowry and [marriage] gift, and I will give according to what you tell me; only give me the girl to be my wife.
13The sons of Jacob answered Shechem and Hamor his father deceitfully, [ justifying their intended action by saying, in effect, we are going to do this] because Shechem had defiled and disgraced their sister Dinah.
14They said to them, We cannot do this thing and give our sister to one who is not circumcised, for that would be a reproach and disgrace to us.
15But we do consent to do this: if you will become as we are and every male among you be circumcised,
16Then we will give our daughters to you and we will take your daughters to us, and we will dwell with you and become one people.
17But if you will not listen to us and consent to be circumcised, then we will take our daughter and go.
18Their words pleased Hamor and his son Shechem.
19And the young man did not delay to do the thing, for he delighted in Jacob's daughter. He was honored above all his family [so, ranking first, he acted first].
20Then Hamor and Shechem his son came to the gate of their [enclosed] town and discussed the matter with the citizens, saying,
21These men are peaceable with us; so let them dwell in the land and trade in it; for the land is large enough [for us and] for them; let us take their daughters for wives and let us give them our daughters.
wow, that seems fair. hey you fucked my daughter against her will. she begged you to stop, you could have killed her. you have scarred my beautiful daughter for life! and for that i will kill you! whats that? a deal? ok circumcise yourself. let me become rich. well share a beer over dinner son, and remember daddy loves you. yeah, that bitch dinah's been asking for it anyway wearing her slutty clothes, im glad it was you that raped her, at least i got something out of that worthless bitch.
now if you are still wondering why this passage makes me a little more sick than any other passage in the bible, it's for this fucking reason. are you ready? my parents really really really fucked up on this one, here goes. my name is JACOB! my parents named me after this FUCK! thanks mom and dad!
ok i lied, here is a tiny one! go get me my dinner woman!
genesis 2:21-25
21And the LORD God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam, and he slept: and he took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh instead thereof;
22And the rib, which the LORD God had taken from man, made he a woman, and brought her unto the man.
23And Adam said, This is now bone of my bones, and flesh of my flesh: she shall be called Woman, because she was taken out of Man.
24Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh.
25And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.
and the lord told adam to go fuck himself, and he did and he had 2 kids! seriously, basically adam fucked himself. wtf?
Friday, January 29, 2010
deuteronomy + day 4 = venting
im back with a little scripture to start you off. a good friend of mine introduced this to me tonight, and i could not let it pass by. below i have copied and pasted this, and i have confirmed it by also looking in the "good news bible" todays english version .
6 If your very own brother, or your son or daughter, or the wife you love, or your closest friend secretly entices you, saying, "Let us go and worship other gods" (gods that neither you nor your fathers have known, 7 gods of the peoples around you, whether near or far, from one end of the land to the other), 8 do not yield to him or listen to him. Show him no pity. Do not spare him or shield him. 9 You must certainly put him to death. Your hand must be the first in putting him to death, and then the hands of all the people. 10 Stone him to death, because he tried to turn you away from the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. 11 Then all Israel will hear and be afraid, and no one among you will do such an evil thing again.
well well well... this is pretty good stuff. tell you the truth this is why i just so happen to be an antitheist. and honestly, i don't think that if i believed in "the lord" that i would want to go to heaven. frankly, he would scare the living shit out of me. what do you think he would do if you said lord your a dick. hey what happened to bill? he got bashed in the head by the lord with a fucking rock, died on the spot. wtf happened? he called him a dick.
please deal with one more, i promise not to constantly burn you out on too many of these. 1 more and i am done with the bible today i swear to god. HAH im kidding, well i promise it's the last for the day.
1 The LORD said to Moses, 2 "Say to the Israelites: 'When anyone sins unintentionally and does what is forbidden in any of the LORD's commands-
3 " 'If the anointed priest sins, bringing guilt on the people, he must bring to the LORD a young bull without defect as a sin offering for the sin he has committed. 4 He is to present the bull at the entrance to the Tent of Meeting before the LORD. He is to lay his hand on its head and slaughter it before the LORD. 5 Then the anointed priest shall take some of the bull's blood and carry it into the Tent of Meeting. 6 He is to dip his finger into the blood and sprinkle some of it seven times before the LORD, in front of the curtain of the sanctuary. 7 The priest shall then put some of the blood on the horns of the altar of fragrant incense that is before the LORD in the Tent of Meeting. The rest of the bull's blood he shall pour out at the base of the altar of burnt offering at the entrance to the Tent of Meeting. 8 He shall remove all the fat from the bull of the sin offering—the fat that covers the inner parts or is connected to them, 9 both kidneys with the fat on them near the loins, and the covering of the liver, which he will remove with the kidneys- 10 just as the fat is removed from the ox [a] sacrificed as a fellowship offering. [b] Then the priest shall burn them on the altar of burnt offering. 11 But the hide of the bull and all its flesh, as well as the head and legs, the inner parts and offal- 12 that is, all the rest of the bull—he must take outside the camp to a place ceremonially clean, where the ashes are thrown, and burn it in a wood fire on the ash heap.
fuck it you can just kill me or whatever, this sounds way to fucking complicated for an accidental mistake. but i promise not to only slow down to 2 mph at a stop sign again. i will come to a complete stop and look both ways twice!
ok i made a promise and i intend to keep it! now i have found a scripture i'd like to reccomend, it's leviticus 18:1-30. "forbidden sexual practices.
bah! it's day 4 and i can honestly say that this is the longest i have been without alcohal since the late 90's-early 2000's. even though it has been a little tough, i have had no huge urges to drink anything other than water or diet soda. work has kept me more than occupied for the week as we are now on thursday heading into friday for most people, and i am on pace for a 55+ hr work week. 60 w/breaks. my body is physically exhausted, but my mind has been wide awake. i can not say that i have slept for more than 4 hours a night mostly because of distractions i'd like to think. i received 2 fantastic messages from t-mobile basically telling me what i allready know which is that my blackberry is fucked up. i received a call from an old apartment complex that i used to live at, so that they could tell me how incompetent that they all were. i had my maintinance guy at my current complex knock at my door to ask me for my garage opener since it was fucked up as it has been for a week. now he came by at 9am which my wife has told all of these ignorant assholes to please stop fucking with me before 2pm as i work nights and attempt to sleep from 6am-2pm. well i give him the damn thing anyway and he walks away and guess what, my little dog thought it would be a fantastic time to chase the man out the door. thanks pook! so i said fuck it, ill watch a movie on the couch and try to go back to bed turn on the dvd player which my old dog ate the remote for, put in the dvd and it was scratched and skipping no more than 2 minutes into the movie. so i am edgy due to the shock of not having any alcohol, and everyone is fucking with me!
thanks for being kind enough to read my thoughts for the day, and wish me luck through my 1st alcohol free weekend!
6 If your very own brother, or your son or daughter, or the wife you love, or your closest friend secretly entices you, saying, "Let us go and worship other gods" (gods that neither you nor your fathers have known, 7 gods of the peoples around you, whether near or far, from one end of the land to the other), 8 do not yield to him or listen to him. Show him no pity. Do not spare him or shield him. 9 You must certainly put him to death. Your hand must be the first in putting him to death, and then the hands of all the people. 10 Stone him to death, because he tried to turn you away from the LORD your God, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery. 11 Then all Israel will hear and be afraid, and no one among you will do such an evil thing again.
well well well... this is pretty good stuff. tell you the truth this is why i just so happen to be an antitheist. and honestly, i don't think that if i believed in "the lord" that i would want to go to heaven. frankly, he would scare the living shit out of me. what do you think he would do if you said lord your a dick. hey what happened to bill? he got bashed in the head by the lord with a fucking rock, died on the spot. wtf happened? he called him a dick.
please deal with one more, i promise not to constantly burn you out on too many of these. 1 more and i am done with the bible today i swear to god. HAH im kidding, well i promise it's the last for the day.
1 The LORD said to Moses, 2 "Say to the Israelites: 'When anyone sins unintentionally and does what is forbidden in any of the LORD's commands-
3 " 'If the anointed priest sins, bringing guilt on the people, he must bring to the LORD a young bull without defect as a sin offering for the sin he has committed. 4 He is to present the bull at the entrance to the Tent of Meeting before the LORD. He is to lay his hand on its head and slaughter it before the LORD. 5 Then the anointed priest shall take some of the bull's blood and carry it into the Tent of Meeting. 6 He is to dip his finger into the blood and sprinkle some of it seven times before the LORD, in front of the curtain of the sanctuary. 7 The priest shall then put some of the blood on the horns of the altar of fragrant incense that is before the LORD in the Tent of Meeting. The rest of the bull's blood he shall pour out at the base of the altar of burnt offering at the entrance to the Tent of Meeting. 8 He shall remove all the fat from the bull of the sin offering—the fat that covers the inner parts or is connected to them, 9 both kidneys with the fat on them near the loins, and the covering of the liver, which he will remove with the kidneys- 10 just as the fat is removed from the ox [a] sacrificed as a fellowship offering. [b] Then the priest shall burn them on the altar of burnt offering. 11 But the hide of the bull and all its flesh, as well as the head and legs, the inner parts and offal- 12 that is, all the rest of the bull—he must take outside the camp to a place ceremonially clean, where the ashes are thrown, and burn it in a wood fire on the ash heap.
fuck it you can just kill me or whatever, this sounds way to fucking complicated for an accidental mistake. but i promise not to only slow down to 2 mph at a stop sign again. i will come to a complete stop and look both ways twice!
ok i made a promise and i intend to keep it! now i have found a scripture i'd like to reccomend, it's leviticus 18:1-30. "forbidden sexual practices.
bah! it's day 4 and i can honestly say that this is the longest i have been without alcohal since the late 90's-early 2000's. even though it has been a little tough, i have had no huge urges to drink anything other than water or diet soda. work has kept me more than occupied for the week as we are now on thursday heading into friday for most people, and i am on pace for a 55+ hr work week. 60 w/breaks. my body is physically exhausted, but my mind has been wide awake. i can not say that i have slept for more than 4 hours a night mostly because of distractions i'd like to think. i received 2 fantastic messages from t-mobile basically telling me what i allready know which is that my blackberry is fucked up. i received a call from an old apartment complex that i used to live at, so that they could tell me how incompetent that they all were. i had my maintinance guy at my current complex knock at my door to ask me for my garage opener since it was fucked up as it has been for a week. now he came by at 9am which my wife has told all of these ignorant assholes to please stop fucking with me before 2pm as i work nights and attempt to sleep from 6am-2pm. well i give him the damn thing anyway and he walks away and guess what, my little dog thought it would be a fantastic time to chase the man out the door. thanks pook! so i said fuck it, ill watch a movie on the couch and try to go back to bed turn on the dvd player which my old dog ate the remote for, put in the dvd and it was scratched and skipping no more than 2 minutes into the movie. so i am edgy due to the shock of not having any alcohol, and everyone is fucking with me!
thanks for being kind enough to read my thoughts for the day, and wish me luck through my 1st alcohol free weekend!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
day 2
not much to say about today, it's been a pretty shitty day at work but a rather peaceful day in my mind. got home from work around 4 its almost 6 now. i've played about 350 hands of poker at micro stakes and i am down about 5 bucks. o well it's cheaper than drinking. i work with one of the dumbest assholes in the history of assholes. this guy told me that he once smoked crack. this is no fucking bullshit. this guy is so fucking ignorant that he can't read the word chevrolet, and thats what kind of truck he owns... i feel bad for the guy because hes such a hopeless douchebag, but i still equally hate him.
i ate at thundercloud today had a turkey sandwich and a bag of baked lays, ever since this quitting alcohol deal i have told myself that i am going to try to eat healthy again. working out is still impossible with the hours that i work. my brain has seriously been all over the place today i think the remaining brain cells that i have are beggining to breathe again.
ready for a shower and sleep now.
i ate at thundercloud today had a turkey sandwich and a bag of baked lays, ever since this quitting alcohol deal i have told myself that i am going to try to eat healthy again. working out is still impossible with the hours that i work. my brain has seriously been all over the place today i think the remaining brain cells that i have are beggining to breathe again.
ready for a shower and sleep now.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Day 1
So I have never blogged before, but I have decided that today is a good day to begin. I am an alcoholic and i have been considering quitting alcohol all together. I am a daily drinker now and it has honestly gotten way out of hand. Drinking 6-12 beers on a nightly basis sometimes even 18-20 on a weekend night. I work about 55 hours a week and the rest of it is usually spent with a beer in my hand until i go to sleep. I am not looking for sympothy or even support, as this is something that I got into myself and now I am basically at the bottem of a big hole looking up. Today will be my 1st sober day in over a week and about the 2nd since new years. I am about to pour out around 100 dollars worth of whiskey, vodka, tequila, beer, rum, and whatever else I may have in my house. I am not expecting this to be easy, as quitting any addiction ever is. In due time I would like to apologize to anyone that I may have hurt or humiliated during my 12 year span as a consumer. It's all a bit hazy but i got drunk for the first time at the age of 15. I was a moderate drinker from 16-18, a bit crazy at the 19-23 range, more of a daily consumer from 24-27, and now I am 28 and pounding every drink I can. I have a history of depression, and it has been my way of coping basically half of my life "all of my adult life". If I was capable of just drinking on occassion I would do that, but I really just enjoy getting drunk alone every night. I don't think that alcohal is bad in moderation, I am just not a moderation style person. i will blog again soon everyday may not be possible, but i will have some free time on my hands so wish me luck.
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